My Story

Read this if u cant sleep…

Its 1.05am…Its Thursday the 13th of April…And here I am stuck in my room typing put this post…I dont know why i cant sleep…Is it because of the chat i had with someone earlier who made me realize somethings that i have been doing or is it because im trying to download a movie starring one of my friends…watever the reason is, this post should not be publish right now…why?…cos right now im not feeling right…and when im not feeling right, i tend to talk crap which is wat i am doing write now…but i want to say is this…here i am blogging and i know not all of u are gonna read this post…if ur reading this now, thanks for sparing some time…anyways, right now im thinking of wat would happen if i suddenly die…i mean who will take over my blog???will it die along with me???who will be my replecement for the person who hangs around jo and who will be the new person for hiu li to scold???and then of course there are also things which i know are seemingly impossible to happen…one good example is that some u guys actually think hiu li and i are ment for each other…i dont know…but i do know that that is something which is least likely to happen…and of course there are also suspisions on whether kajon will ever turn gay…and i can also bet that that is least likely to happen…another interesting example would be joanne soo…i have a strong feeling that see might be the next MUSA president…however that remains to be seen…as u guys are reading this, u will soon find yourselves having lunch or dinner with me if im alive that is…wat im trying to do here is misscommunicate u guys…nah…just kidding…i dont like the aaron i am now…i somehow prefer the earlier aaron i was…the quite one…i was more gentleman then…now im a monster…im rude…i dont think before saying things…i call all of u guys names…hell i even hurt most of ur feelings…and im definately not proud of it…this is definately a person i want to be…therefore, after april 28th, some of u guys will be seeing a new aaron…and i dont mean im gonne be gay although when i took the bet i was hoping i would be attached but still i lost and ok u guys can call me gay…hell i’ll even call myself gay but as long as i know im not one, i wont feel bad…but please keep in mind that im not saying being a gay is weird…its just not aaron raj…aaron raj is a totally different person…he was once one of the smartest guys in school…and he was also a very polite person…i hate the aaron i am now…all i do is crack lame jokes and make people laugh…i dont want that…i dont want to be remembered as the joker…i want to be the old aaron…i want to be the quiet guy in the class who cracks the best joke of all…i want to be a more mild mannered gentleman…i want to be a better person…its gonna be hard to change but im gonna change…in bee bee’s words,"Everybody’s Changing"…Yes its true…Hiu Li is one person who has definately changed a lot…From the girl whom i knew in the early months in MUFY to being my coursemate and closest friend, she has changed a lot…hell i myself have changed a lot…but changing doesn’t mean really changing…everybody changes but the key question i feel which is the most important is, is it time for us to change?…and have we changed into someone we want to be or someone else?…think about it…have we changed for the benefit of ourselves or others?…have we changed because we want to or because others want us to?…If u guys are still reading, indeed u guys are not just my best friends but my brothers and sisters…The term changing means to change but like i said there are many ways and many reasons to change…The media changes but is it for the benefit of society or media corparations?…the same thing comes to us…we change because we want to or because we have to?…As we moved towards the second half of 2006, i can still see many of my friends unchanged and i like this in them…Joanne is one person who seems unchanged to me although i know she has been going through hell…Kajon and chun hor still seem the same to me…So changing isnt really a big thing…The bottomline is that we should know wat we are changing for and not simply change…Our reasons for changing should be strong…Only then can we be better people…

THE END…

This entry was posted on Wednesday, April 12th, 2006 at 10:34 am and is filed under Uncategorized. You can follow any responses to this entry through the RSS 2.0 feed. You can skip to the end and leave a response. Pinging is currently not allowed.