I cant recall if i blogged about this before but i know everytime i want to blog about trust, something goes wrong…My pc hangs, the connection goes off or i end up in a fight with my bro…If it works this time its good then…I remember blogging about change sometime ago…And after reading it a few times i realized it was a good post…mostly crapt though but a good post…and now i’m going to blog about trust…I guess trust and change are the key events that changed my life for the whole of 2006…
From January right up to December many things have happened…Some of the events have changed things…I made new friends, thicken friendship and lost friends…But i assume most of you guys would know which lost of friendship hurt me the most…Hell i cant get out of it till today…and we have not spoken about the incident since or at least come to terms with it…I guess some people are ok with it…They are used to making use of people and getting rid of them easily…I know thast being straight forward but after seeing my e-business lecturer, Mr.Ong being extremely straight forward with his students, i realised he had nothing to lose…and yes i have nothing to lose also…So im gonna be very frank and straight forward…All she had to do was keep a secret…nothing more nothing less…but i guess some people cant do that…They use it for their personal gain…I have made mistakes in my past but none as bad as this…And the best part was, she was the one i trusted the most…of all people…no use to regret now…i had my chance and i blew it up as well…i dont know how many other people she has told…i dont care…but not from her…of all people…why her?…i loved her a lot although she never realized it…but thats a different story…and u do this to me…i know im being an assole by repeating this again although most of my friends have told me to get over it…but wat would u guys do if u were in my shoes?…in anonymous order, different friends have told me different things…some didnt get the whole story and judged, some got one side of the story and judged, some told me to forget about it, some told me to forget her, some told me not to talk to her anymore…a lot of people told me a lot of things…some even judged without hearing the real story…but remember, there is always 2 sides to a story…anyways, for the matter of trust,…i trusted a lot of people…and i mean a lot…but i know not many people trust me and im cool with it…cos if my own mum cant trust me, i dont expect u guys to trust me too…but if u guys do, thanks…
so is trust important?…in the words of a communication student, trust is a social construction, isnt it?…i dont think so…trust is not a construction…its a value we all have…everybody trusts soemthing…dead or alive…u trust your car to give you a save journey…i talk to my car when i drive…some of u guys think its strange but i think its important we communicate with this vehicles..they have feelings too…too much cartoon for me i think…u trust the barber, the mechanic, the bus driver, the lrt, the newspaper, the news?, your friends, family, your hamsters, your computer so that it doesnt break down on the eve of your assignment due date and the list goes on…trust is important in relationships…in fact its the foundation of any relationship…the relationship between mom and daughter, relationship between guy and car, relationship between pianist and piano, relationship between mechanic and tools…they are all relationships and they depend on trust…but sometimes changes happen which lead to the change in trust…so thats why u cant trust someone or something too much…you must have a backup…backup- another substitute…if the piano is spoil, play another piano…if the car wont start, use a cab, if u cant trust ur mum, talk to your dad…and so on and so forth…
its 2.32 pm, rachel wong just called me asking me to book tickets for her in GSC 1Utama…not all of u know her though…but still, i hardly know this girl…we do the same course and ive only spoken to her a bit…now in summer course, we help each other in work unlike others who just call u and ask to do without attempting at first and say they dont understand anything althought they come for lecture but sitdown and daydream for the whole 2 hours…and when u help them, they dont say anything, and say its not right…who the hell u think u are?…if u know then do it la…dun complain about my work…this is a real slamming session…if u have read till this part, thank u for keeping up with this crapt…some might find me an assole or a real petty person or maybe a sissy for typing all this…
looking back in 2006, a lot of interesting things have happened…not only to me but also some of my closest friends and also the world…and speaking of my friends, i know of someone who i think had her trust missused also…well thats wat i feel…i mean she trusted many of them but they all ended up being real huge jerks…but i guess she has something i dont have…she has the ability to overcome all of this or at least thats wat she says to me…but i know deep down inside her, it must feel bad to feel being used, cheated…ok not so much like that…but thats wat i feel…and i know of a another guy who got his trust all wrong also with his gf…a friend of mine who most of u guys wouldnt know…and then there was gaya…she trusted her instincts to cross the road but look wat happened to her…a very sad thing about her and how she left us…no one expected her to go show early and like this…i realize my e-business lecturer does talk a lot of interesting crapt…if u like someone, u better tell them now…dont wait till the last minute…cos u can never trust the future nor the present…anything can happen…
indeed anything can happen…almost 3 years of friendship and love all gone…maybe she can live with it but only a few no wait only one of u know wat im really going through…and i thank you for still being there with me…martin luther king said he had a dream that all his children will be treated equally…he got his dream but he wasnt able to live to see it…Gandhi had a dream for the independence of his nation but he didnt get wat he really wanted…Malaysians wanted a government that will not increase the fuel price, and look wat we got…all this goes down to trust…we trusted these politicians and see wat happens?…better stop here or i’ll be taken under ISA…parents send their children to monash and sunway to study…but from wat i see, most of them are just wasting their time and money…i can see it among people i know itself…but there are those that stil come through when they fall…but just imagine, the amount of money some of my friends spend in a month is more than wat some people earn in a month…and this guys work hard for it and have families…and their families trust them to bring home money and food…and they trust their employers not to sack them and their employers trust them to produce the work needed…it all goes down to trust…when the casting is made for a film, each actor chosen is expected to do their best performance…this is the trust in the film industry but that goes wrong always…paris hilton can buy voices to produce her new album and now fight with britney over the some guy…kevin federline gonna get his ass kicked when cena hammers him…its all bloody money…the people who make this news know that idiots like us wil want to read this stuff…but for wat? can we trust it?
this is a really long post…wat a way to end 2006…if ur still reading thank u…indeed u like my work or maybe u guys experiencing something similar to me…and den there is those online pranks…i think i was one of those hit hardest…ive been pranked by dont know how many people, kiera, venessa, sarah, john, just to name a few…people like this got no life…allthough i think all those above are the same individual…and then there the pranks of sent to the same people…but those guys mention above, well they really know how to ruin friendship but for wat?…wat the hell u guys from it?…my trust?…hell u guys made me lose her…but hey, i dont blame u…she brought it upon herself as so did i…it all went back to trust…she trusted u…and trusted u with me and the circle collapse…people, dont ever trust online flings online the person gives u a contact number or somthing but even then it could be fake…
there was once a girl i liked a lot but now its over…i still like her but i dont think she see’s anything in me besides being her friend but even that too now is no longer…im not her friend but we talk…for wat?…to please the rest of my friends?…i could have forgived her if she apologize…but untill now nothing…its not easy to get over someone u love so much…i can see how mr.ong feels…we both facing same problem…haha…why why why…sigh…every limbo boy and girl, all around the limbo world, come lets do the limbo dance…and now, there is also trust in God…and to end this long piece of crapt masterpiece, i think and i know that God is one person we can always trust…HE has not let me down yet and i know HE wont…i may not be speaking to HIM regularly but i know he lisetens to each and everyone of us…
remember, Trust leads to Love…
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