My Story

My previous post was rather dull and filled with stupid stuff…but after posting that post, i chatted with someone whom i must say made my day…yup…i dont think any of u guys no her yet…but i realized we share a lot in common and thats why i guess i enjoyed chatting with her…its people like these that make me feel wanted and alive…im not saying that u guys dont cos u know who u are…for those of u who have always stuck with my foolishness and lameness i thank thee…

Anyways, this person i was chatting with made my day which goes to proves that no matter wat happens there is always hope and happiness…

girl, if u are reading this, just want u to know that u made my day…thank you…

ipoh may be a boring town with nothing to do and with no special people to be with but it is still my hometown…and right now i wish i was there…its not that im homesick or anything but its just that life in uni can be so stressfull…when u dont have problems with studies, u have problems with friends, when u dont have problems with friends u have problems with studies…when u dont have both, u have problem with health…when u have all, u feel like puting a bullet into ur head…thats basically wat the bloody hell im going through now…

summer exams are next week and i dont think im ready for it yet although i have been studying…to make matter worse, having to deal with emotions and feelings i have for someone who wants me to get over it and move on…and to make matters worse, my health isnt getting any better either…going to the gym may be a stress release but then with all the other stress makes me hungry and wanna eat more and drink more…i think i have consumed enough alcohol to make my liver fail me any time…not the right thing to do…even as im chatting right now im drinking a can of coke…not as bad as alcohol but its my third can today…

just now i was looking at some old pics…pics that make me happy, pics that make me cry…and i realized some are missing…the missing pics are the pics which i deleted when i was mad at someone…and now i kinda miss those pics…and then i was looking at her pics…just staring at it…and letting tears flow down knowing that its never gonna work…but i just dont understand how some people can handle it so well…many have told me to just go with the flow and i can overcome this problem if i really want to…and ive tried…but everytime i go one step up, i end up going 2 steps down when i see her again…but how does she do it…thats wat i dont understand…she knows i loved her and yet she takes it as nothing…i mean she could at least help me deal with this problem by trying to make it worse…

hell i know im typing crap now…and yes i do type crap especially when im alone…and like one of my dearest friend who has a dark side or another blog where she puts all the other stuff of her life, i have one too…u guys wont find it though…i look at wat i write from time to time and i realize most of the time is me writing about her and my frustration and my stupidity…ive deleted some of the posts some too maybe because it was too scary to read…i feel like ive a got a split personality…

my best friend is out clubbing tonight, my bro is clubbing tonight and probably getting himself laid, my mum is probably sleeping now, another friend of mine is probably having a teh tarik in mamak, another one could be masterbating in canada, while another having a secret affair with another friend of mine, and another one celebrating the last day of her job with another looking down at me from heaven…they all have something to do…i wonder wat she is doing now…sleeping, tv, studying…just to say that everybody has something to do…im blogging now so im doing something…

i just want to feel alive…i want to know i exist…i want to live reality…

how many of you want that?

life is not certain…dont waste time doing the wrong things…i have wasted half of my life doing rubbish…and i have had many obstacles in my life…having to deal with the loss of many family members in a short period of time, having to deal with financial issues, having to deal with an insane brother, having to deal with my emotions and feelings for her…life can be mean to us sometimes…

although, i know there people going through more worse things than me…britney spears doesnt wear underwear to her parties and its on the heaadlines of some newspapers while thousands of people dying in africa goes unnoticed…is it because we just choose to ignore them or it doesnt really matter?

people are dying of hunger in many countries in the world while we have people having food fest where they throw food on eahc other…

millions of children are made into child labour and we still enjoy nike clothing…

singapore beats malaysia in football but not all malaysians really give a damn…

wat is happening here?…have we gone mad?…i think i have…

this is wat happens when ur tired, drunk and desperately missing someone…

i gotta move on…

its amazing how one small post can get so long and complicated like this…

sigh…god make me strong…

aaron signing off…

After viewing the film, i was kinda surprise why it didnt recieved an Oscar nomination for best picture…cos i certainly felt that it at least deserved a nomination at least…the movie is a musical so if ur not into it dont watch it…the movie focuses on these girls who can sing and get a chance to perform as backup singers before making big…when they become famous, they start having problems and one of them leaves or is made to leave…a very touching story actually which kinda make me have tears at the end…the acting was excellent…i can see why jeniffer hudson has already won a golden globe and an actors guild award for her role…she was the main star of the film if u ask me…the other actors were good too…eddie murphy was good and so was jamie foxx but hudson still ruled the enitre filmed if u asked me…

the songs in the film are bautiful…love them alll…cant wait to get the soundtrack…if ur into pop, seventies and a bit of jazz and disco, this is it…

my rating 9 out of 10…i just loved it…

Another great movie…I saw it just yesterday…Its not really about diamonds if u ask me, its about trust and love…the one thing i really like about this movie is that it portrays the africans in a way no other film has done it before…i mean the constant gardner was a good movie as well but this one is better…its sad to see how the rebels are actually trained amd how we actually get our diamonds…these people work hard for the diamonds and are paid hardly anything for it while we spend thousands for a diamond…the african continent if u ask me is really a damn rich continent…if only the poeple there can learn to live together without violence, the african continant would definatley be a great contenant…but sadly ethnicity, religion and race seperates all those…the rich gets richer and the poor gets poorer…

back to the movie, i can see why Leonardo and djimon recieved nominations for their acting…both of them were brilliant…Leonardo  probably because he was able to speak in many different dialects in the film which kinda amused me myself while for djimon, his emotions as a father seperated from his family and having his own son in the rebel army was just amazing…it was like the real thing was happening to him…the soundtrack was rather interesting as well and so was the cinematography…the directing was ok but i felt it could have been better…

my rating, 7.5 out of 10…

Mel Gibson seems to really know how to make his audiences feel eerie every time they watch his films…in the passion of christ, he showed how badly Christ was tortured and now in apocalypto he has done it once again but this time with the ancient Mayan civilization…I was rather surprised he wanted to make a movie like this but it was rather good…Although the dialogue is in some ancient language, Mayan is im not mistaken, the movie is still very easy to follow even without the help of subtitles…Its about a tribe that gets wiped out and prisoners taken by another tribe…and the hero escapes to save his family…but i loved the battle scenes and the gore and violence…i mean this could have been how the civilizations might have been that time…the acting was ok in a sense that they were all mostly b-grade actors and actresses…the directing was good and so was the editing and cinematography…

i dont think this film will be released in Malaysia but if u do get a chance to watch it please do so…Not the best of films to watch if u dont like violence and gore…a bit of nudity though as the cast are portrayed in ancient costumes and u guys should know how ancient costumes look like…

i think i would give this film a 7 out of 10…

This is wat might happen in 10 years according to the 10 years plan by Chang Wei Keat and Abby…

1. Wei Keat becomes a lesbian…
2. Abby becomes a Nascar racer…
3. Wei Keat gets married to a donkey…
4. Wei Keat creates a beekey for his donkey…
5. Tan Ka Jon gets Miss Indonesia…
6. Miss Indonesia gets rid of Tan Ka Jon…
7. Abby has 7 kids…
8. Bee Bee has 8 kids and 6 husbands…
9. Joanne marries the model…
10. The model divorces Joanne…
11. Chun Hor is still virgin…
12. Syaza is Queen…
13. Hiu Li is desperate…
14. Virginia becomes miss indonesia…
15. Bee Bee has her 7th husband…
16. Abby has child no.8…
17. Wei Keat buys a farm…
18. Joanne becomes Prime Minister of Singapore…
19. Hiu Li marries Gong Li…
20. Aaron gets laid…

some of this might happen and some might not…but watever happens, it’s all caused by wei keat’s 10 years plan…

Kelvin Raj can be a real pain in the ass but he is still my little bro who cares for me more than i care for him…true indeed…i dont really care for him that much but this guy he really looks after me…although he bullies me and fights with me and all that, the bottomline is, he still loves me cos im his big bro…

Anyways, a few days ago i was chatting with hiu on msn…and my bro happened to notice it…and normally, well most of the time i would be chatting with either hiu or joanne with msn…so my bro was noticing that also…and he knows the thing that has been going on with me and hiu as well although there was nothing really going on in the first place…

But then, a few nights ago, he called me…and spoke casually…den he say, "aaron, if get hiu as ur gf, i will disown u!!!"…and i was like wat?…so i ask him why although there was no such to ever happen…he couldnt answer and just said he will disown me and kill me…it is then i realize, my little bro cant let go of me…he knows if in future when i get a gf and get married, he will become no.2 to me…haha…so the poor little fellow is jealous…

kinda cute if u ask me the way he put it in with a sad voice…but anyways, how would u think ur siblings would react to something like this?…like my bro?…well maybe or maybe not…but the bottomline is, no matter wat happens, blood is always thicker than water or as dr.jega puts it in, water is thicker than blood…

haha…end

Mr.Chang Wei Keat, Mr.Tan Ka Jon and all you other Manchester United fans out there…

What you guys gonna do now?

We are just 12 points behind u guys and 6 points behind Chelsea…This is where the game begins…

Arsenal to win the premiership? i dont know…
Arsenal to win FA cup? i dont know…
Arsenal to win Carling Cup? i dont know…
Arsenal to win Champions League? i dont know…
Arsenal to beat Liverpool and Manchester United? i know…

God bless Arsenal…

Some said we were gonna loose to Liverpool in FA cup, we didnt
Some said we gonna lose to MU 13/8 we didnt
Some said we gonna beat the crapt out of MU we did…

i dont know wat has been going on behind my back over the pass few weeks…but i think i have an idea on wat might happen…u see, recently, mr.chang wei keat has been communicating with a friend of a friend of mine…it was rather intense communications…anyways, this is wat i think might happen…

after his graduation from monash university in his business degree and chow kit university in his gigolo degree, wei keat is moving to new zealand…apparently the demand for asian guys there is high…so imagine a malaysian guy with a business and gigolo degree in new zealand…wow…and my friend’s sis lives there as well..so maybe he might tumpang their house untill he saves up enough money to move to his own house…

a few years down the line, he would have made enough money to buy a farm…and den he will do his dream job…breeding cows…wei keat will be a cowboy…he will take his cows all around the farm on a horse…take them for food, toilet breaks and so on…and he will go to the mountain with the cows…but then he will be all alone…and so he has asked her to come…and i think she has agreed to go…and she goes…and so does my friend…they all go to the farm…my friend brings her husband while wei keat marries the other girl…

and now this wear the story starts i think…wei keat and my friend’s husband go off every 3 months to the mountains to breed the cows…now being awya for 3 months can be rather lonely for wei keat…and then the relationship and bonding starts with my friend’s husband…and they do it every time they go there…

soon my friend finds out…she catches them making out…damn…wei keat is in deep shit…he is divorced from his wife…while the other guy moves away with his wife…although they do meet up for one night stands often…and one day wei keat receives a telegram…his lover has died…his lover was beaten up to death by his wife…wei keat was devastated…

and so this is wat i think the 10 year plan is about…this story however seems to be very familiar…hehe…

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It’s hard to sometimes to accept the fact that it aint worth to go for something you know you will never get and end up becoming all depressed and horrible again…

It’s hard to accept the fact that you want to move on but you just cannot…

It’s hard to do things you want to do when you know you are being watched…

It’s hard to get someone who actually understands you for who you really are…

However,

It’s easy to fall in love but getting out from it is hard…