My Story

It’s 1.42 am and im still awake and not asleep…Bro has ditched me and gone clubbing…And im stuck here in my room doing nothing but watching new episodes of Dexter…As time flew past, i suddenly found myself flying back in time as well…Looking back into my past i realize that i have done many stupid things and also many weird things…If only i can change my pass…But then, many seem to say the pass influences our future…how true is that i dont know…some say we are the product of our pass…is it so?…im filled with jealousy now…if he can get a go on a date why cant I?…As jon said, wat have we accomplished in the last 3 years…Its not about getting someone but its how u get the person and keep it going strong…Listening to his story, i must say i am very amuzed to see the turn of events in that fellows life…i know im crapping but its 1.48am now…I see myself as Silence and i see her as Noise…Silence and Noise cant be together but in the end, Silence screams…Writing classes seem to be my favourite at the moment…I guess I was lucky enough to review Joanne’s work and she reviewed mine…And i guess because of that, she could understand the character in my story which is somewat related to myself…The girl is going through hell but i know she will pull through like she always does…why?…cos she’s God’s gracious gift…and just by looking at the amount of support she got from my peers today, i can say that she has got all of us to be there for her…Some people dont know values…thats wat i just think…a person buying a car just because the salesman was nice to him although he didnt really needed the car at the moment and then goes on to blog about ways to satisfy himself…im speaking in general but it applies to all…Its 1.56am…kajon must be sleeping and im still typing…the comm bash today was a total failure if u ask me…the organisers were more intrested in having fun among themselves then mixing with the first years…its sad really…but we had a good time…and good performances…dr.andrew was just amazing…divya shaked her booty to shakira’s whenever wherever while eddie played his guitar and tried to capture the audience and eunice gave us a taste of her belly fusion…i could see the boreness in some lecturers and students…never the less, dr.yeoh called me and ask me to communicate with 3 new first years…3 girls…one from klang, one from shah alam and the other from ipoh…yupyup…ipoh…we then indulged in a conversation about ipoh…she was from perak methodist school while dr.yeoh and i were from acs ipoh…anyways, good to meet new people as usual especially first years where u can "bodek" them a bit…as the event ended, they left while cindy and lia wanted balloons…so i had to get them some and i came back…purpose of the balloons, i dont know…all i know is i could here temme laugh so loud when ethan made a joke…anyways, wasnt i saying i was time travelling?…so i went to my pass…and if there is any moment i can change, i would change the day i decided to stay back and study with her…cos thats wat started it all…i may be over it for good but u still have those little scars…i just dont understand how some people can live like that…saw bee bee is NOT obssessed with bald guys…its just not her…if she ever gets a bald boyfriend, im shaving jon’s head bald…and so we go to gym now…my 21st birthday is coming…im still single…not that im dissapointed looking at the tight financial situation im in…life’s not fair…i spend about RM150 a week which includes fuel, laundry and phone while my bro gets RM250 a week…and he doesnt do his laundry or pay for fuel unless i force him too…poor mum works hard to support me and my bro and that idiot should at least realize it…not easy being a single mother and supporting 2 sons in college and uni…she needs a vacation…probably i should take her on holiday soon…its 2.09am and my mum probably is sleeping…i dont know why but i suddenly miss her now…i miss my dad…i wonder how my life would be if he was around…i probably wont be in monash but in KAG or some government uni…and i wont be like how i am now…dad was a cool guy…he was the only one i think who knew wat i thought and knew how to handle me…sigh…stupid virus…i still dont seem to understand why he had to get it…its 2.11am…bro is not back yet and my eye lids are pulling me to bed…but i dont want to sleep…not untill the idiot gets back…Its always been lonely nights for me…When will it change?…I never wanted to get into a relationship for sex…thats just so not me…it was always to just have that feeling…u know, when u know ur with someone u love…that special feeling…not like those we see in movies…cos if life was like that den wei keat would be dating jessica a long long long time ago…my housemate is snoring…damn…i always wonder why coudlnt we ever gave it a try…i mean just go out and see wat happens…we got nothing to lose…bee bee and joanne have always seemed to speak a lot of sense into me…and of course the rest as well…how does one measure love? how does one define love?…i have seen enough movies to give me enough hopes and dreams…reality sucks and there is nothing i can do about it…idiots are going out with the wrong girls…if i ever see him in a street crossing the road and im driving, i will definately knock him down…how can one so beautiful go out with an idiot like that? not that im saying she should go out with me, but why of all people him…FUCK!!!…pisses me off…its 2.20am…im sleepy yet im not sleepy…grandmas not doing to well…she only has a couple of months more left but i know she will come through…she’s a fighter…everyone in the family are fighters…i dont know how i will be if i lose my grandparents…im more attached to them then my own mum…but thats life i guess…we cant expect everything our way now can we…sigh…men tend to be more forgiving then women…indeed its true…after all she has done, im still a stupid assole to forgive her although she told me she can never forgive me…and i dont understand till today wat she meant by that…she is just the type of person who makes lives either complete or miserable…its 2.27am…i can see im typing slower now…eyes are shutting…i was suppose to film and it never went through…only a few shots and it stopped…i have tonnes of ideas running in my head…sometimes i wish there could be a device that would just suck out all ur thinkngs and type it out…the bottomline is i just farted and life rocks…

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